Post-Lamentation!

“We live in a time of unvoiced and ungrieved loss.

Unvoiced loss

becomes a source of anger, depression, lack of hospitality,

and a perception of the new as threat, not gift.

Grieving and lamenting the loss of the present

prepares us for the arrival of the new.

Lamenting allows us to greet the arrival

of the new as a gift, not a threat.

Paradoxically,

lament prepares the way for new beginnings.

“Dare to dream.

To dream boldly.

To dream audaciously.

To dream subversively.

We don’t need less imaginative hope.

We need more.”

--Rev. Bryan Massingale,

speaking to the

Leadership Conference of Women Religious Assembly

Before I read the above words of Fr. Massingale last night, I wrote a lengthy blog,

listing all that I was grieving. I had never voiced it all before, not even to Mary. I

was angry and my blog was filled with lots of negative judgments. The blog was

a lamentation God, my Divine Mother, telling her how disappointed I was with

how the world was going, frustrated about how my meditations were going and

the fact that I didn’t think others were interested in really building the

Kingdom/Queendom/Presence of God either in themselves or on the planet.

This morning, though, during meditation and contemplating my day ahead, I

heard The Divine Mother’s voice say inside of me, “Focus only on the positive

things.” I had always seen myself as a “glass-half-full” person and have lived

quite positively. When I got worried about things, I acted in ways to change the

situation as best as I could. That was the main reason, Mary and I and another

couple formed the Grain of Wheat Community. We wanted to make the world a

better place by starting a residential community that l would live in tune with Lord

Jesus’ way of love and care for all life. We thought of it as a “Beatitudinal”

Community, in tune with the Beatitudes in Matthew’s and Luke’s gospels.

When the residential community broke up, I turned my attention to helping people

build the presence of God within themselves through my teaching of spirituality

and the science and philosophy of yoga. I started The Fond du Lac Center for

Spirituality and Healing to do that.

A few days ago, I began looking at the glass as half empty, instead of what the

Divine Mother told me to do this morning. I recalled Fr. Massingale’s words and

realized that, after lamenting vehemently and even thinking violent thoughts, I did

not feel angry any more. I felt hopeful. I realized that there are so many good

things happening in the world and in my life. Now I can dare to dream even more,

knowing that all is well, even in the midst of the pain and problems that our planet

and myself may be facing.

I will dedicate myself to helping people unite their minds, bodies, and spirits.

Even helping one person will help the entire universe. Spending one moment in

the conscious presence of my Divine Mother, doing one little service for Mary,

smiling and welcoming one person into my life, writing one letter to my

Congressman, energizing one person with Reiki, Healing Touch or Bemer

electromagnetic frequency treatment will help the entire universe come closer to

the Universal Christ, the Universal Consciousness of Love.

It was good that I lamented. I got the “crap” out of me. And of course, like any

good parent, the Divine Mother just listened and let me vent, then nudged me

toward thinking and doing positive things.

Thank you, O Beloved Divine Mother! I cry for joy now!

I bow to the divinity within you!