by Michael Ketterhagen
Ever since my chemo therapy treatment for the multiple myeloma in my blood stream, I have become aware that the Divine Mother (my affectionate name for God) has been singing to my soul.
Every morning I awaken to a specific song in my mind. Each, of course, is quite symbolic and sometimes the words that I have attached to the melody don’t quite fit the actual lyrics. Nevertheless, I have learned that they are messages from my Beloved Divine Mother to help me understand what is going on in my healing process. Sometimes they nudge me along the healing path. Other times, they just clarify what is happening.
Often, though, they give me a message of encouragement, a message that helps me through some of the agony of the chemo and the stem cell transplant process. Like anyone who has a stem cell transplant, the journey is not an easy one. It is filled with nausea and diarrhea and much body discomfort.
The melody and words of the particular song, I believe, are Christ (as Christianity would say) within me, or are the Hebrew “YHWH” (I am who I am), or are the “shakti” (power) of Rudra (as Vedic Tantric Yoga states) filling me with vitality, nourishment, zest and enthusiasm. They are the “promptings” of the Holy Spirit, reviving me and moving me continually toward the awareness of how much I am loved and how wonderful I am.
Like most people, I have had a very negative self-image throughout my life. I hide that negative self-image, like most people, mainly because I don’t want to seem arrogant and self-righteous, by doing “great, acceptable” things and living a life that is considered “respectable” to others. But, in any case, I have always been trying to prove how good I am, even though I, like everyone else, am made in the image and likeness of God (Gen 1:27) and am truly a DIP (Divine, Infinite and Perfect) person, according to Swami Rama.
I never really believed that, deep down!
Well, this past week, as Mary and I were preparing to come home from the hospital, (I was discharged until after January with the instructions to get stronger and stronger. I was healed of the cancer and was to begin my recuperation.), the following song flowed from my soul into my entire being. (I am including the video, as to write it would do an injustice to its power in me.)
The Divine Mother was letting me know how much She loved me!
I was overwhelmed and couldn’t contain my tears of joy and humility!
Thank you, Divine Mother!
I love you, too!